sleeping on your porch

honestlyyyy considering dropping out of school... i'm not sure, academics just hasn't meshed well with me. i've felt like this since primary school so i know it's not some whim or anything but it still feels really silly to think. i mean, who wants to become a high-school dropout? i know high school isn't the be-all end-all though.. i'm very lucky to have more options available to me. i could take some short courses instead, tafe has always seemed more appealing to me... i want to go into art, i don't really mind what specifically- printmaking, maybe? either way most things i'm interested in i'm already qualified to do considering they only need year 10 completion. and why would i trudge through two more years of high school when i can go straight into work?

i've been justifying it to myself for a while now, it's just breaking the news to my parents will probably be difficult, and i have no idea what the process of dropping out is going to be like... which makes it harder because i just feel so incompetent, and my parents aren't the type to put much faith in me. i know i should talk to them soon, just nervous.

on the same-ish note, i'm trying to build up an art portfolio. i have no idea what to use to make that sort of thing so i've just made a folio page on my carrd LMAO. if i could code i would make a neocities website, but i really don't have the space in my life to learn that right now... Tomorrow i have no school so i'll try and draw some more traditional stuff since i don't have much of that other than unpolished random sketches. also, yesterday i ordered some of my stuff as stickers and keychains and the like of wooacry! i'm very excited for how they'll turn out, i'll post them here when they arrive :)

had a very fun weekend!!! went to watch a movie with my friends on sunday, nezha 2- it's a chinese animated movie, the first one was in 2019 so i was veryyyy excited to watch it! and the verdict is... i loved it a lot. the animation is fantastic, it had some goofy kids jokes (since it is a kids movie) but overall it was just enjoyable to fun to watch. and i admit i hold a nostalgic fondness for nezha in general since i grew up watching the 2006 2d animated series- which is practically lost media with how little there is online, and my old cds are gone :( so it was nice to get to watch this. there's a lot of differences, but still!

After the movie i went to my friend's house and started making a lifesize cutout of shadow the hedgehog,,,,,,, i cut up some cardboard boxes, stuck it together with hot glue, finished the pencil sketch and painted the outline of the head before i got tired and went home :-) i'm hoping to finish it in time for a school event so i can bring it and show it off LOL

for valentines day, i first attended my after-school rpg club and then i went out to eat with my friends afterwards ^_^ i went to meetfresh, which is a chinese dessert place. we had shaved ice and taro ball soup<-- a heavy comfort food of mine. my friend also folded paper roses for all of us, which was very sweet of him <3